Viva La Verve!

When humans need sumone to rely on.. will u be there for them? i will... but at what price? is it fair when others rely on u.. and u have no one to rely on? strange isnt it? humans... well.. i call these people consumers... take wat u need.. and leave.. till u need sumthing from that person.. social life? isit a need? a want? what if humans weren't able to talk? wat wud socializing mean then? well.. that wudnt make much of a difference these days now wud it? everyones attending to their own needs.. their own wants... there are few left.. who puts others needs infront of their own.. but when i say few.. i mean VERY FEW. such lamenting u might say.. but i tell u.. to me, this is what its come to... when u want a social life. isit okay to beg? i dun think so anymore. so fuck it i say. i'd rather be in my own world. and be just another consumer. now that makes sense dun it? i've been the opposite for too long.. so to all other consumers. u can fuck the hell off my turf. while i become u. :-)

Everything's changed.. sumhow..
Everything..

Why?

Whats happening?

What the fuck is going on?

I suddenly have wants.. needs..

A sudden want.. to live again.. live the life.

Im Starved of enjoyment..

The need to go OUT. FAR. AWAY from this boring place..

I need to drink.. smoke maybe..

i really dont know wats going on..

fuck this.

My next pay, im gonna blast it on enjoyment.

Anyone with good plans.. please holla! :-)

Michael Jackson
1958 - 2009

Its sad.. my childhood idol.. Gone just like that.. But u know.. He really did screw up himself alot.. I loved the way he looked when he was black.. Going white was a wild idea.. and it did work for him.. for awhile. But he was one of the best singers, dancers and entertainer i've ever seen.. his moves.. except for the ones where he involves his crotch, was really breathtaking.. used to try and imitate those moves when i was young!! oh well.. like the saying goes, "when u got to go.. u got to go!"

olrite.. me time.. :-) So then. im not so happy, not so sad, but content with life. its goooood... yuppa yuppa.. more ups than downs.. but i sure miss those good ol' drinking days.. i just wanna be like that again.. like before.. a can of beer.. nice circle of frens.. chilling out.. listening to each other.. relaxing and wasting time.. till i die.. i mean.. we all die some day.... so thats life! nyargh! but me.. me get bored so very often.. i hav no idea why!!! im lazy. but not that lazy.. physically yes.. but mentally no!.. it needs to be occupied! yikes! for example... why do i keep a blog?! to freaking occupy myself sia! sheesh.. im complaining.. omg... i am! -__-"

okok nufff of that! oheyy.. ronaldo! unveiled at the bernabeu! CHIBAI.. thats the 1st thing i said this morning sia.. fucker can sing all.. bloody asswipe.. $ face cunt! ish. sorry for that! but really i hope he flops at real madrid.. and becomes the worst signing..

nyahah! so thenn.. im not having any negetive feelings aite.. hahaha its just thoughts and stuff that i blogged about.. facts and shite... looking forward to another day and another sunset.. alone..
:-)

"Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin"

Michael Jackson - You Are Not Alone

Let me live the way i want to live.

Let me be the way i want to be.
Let me entertain myself with watever i like.
Let me love the way i want to love.
Let me love the things i do.
Let me entertain people with watever im capable of.

Let me be Joshua. Not Joshua James. Just Joshua.

So wat happened ey? the usual.. 11.30pm, handphone rings.. "hello??"
"joshua where are u? 11.30 aredy!"
"Waiting for bus"
"Haiyahh.." click.
-__-

How irritating is that?
okay nevermind that.

12.30 pm, the handphone irritates again.. "hello??"
"just now 11 aredy.. now wat time aredy??"
"uhh.. 12.30? (DUH)"
"hmph" click.

christ. get a life dad..
Mums nag. not dads.
irritant.

So then i miss jamming.. heard some really good stuff from SVR today..
WoW.
They just keep getting better and better..
:-)

oh oh. and i watched transformers yesterday.. AGAIN!
hahahahah!
amazing stuff! seriously..
just kept getting better and better..
full marks!

Heh.. my favourite... Bumblebeee! :-D

Olrite then..
one piece of advise to all!
"dun worry.. be happy"
:-)

oh and.. get well soon love!

peace!

As the candle lights up my room and gives an apple fragrance.. my mind drifts away from reality... i though about wat i wud be like living as a cat.. fighting for food along the streets, looking for shelter in times of harsh weather conditions.. and i think to myself how can ppl be so cruel to such animals. stapling of their ears, throwing sticks, kicking, etc. what the fuck is wrong with us human being these days... what went wrong in the evolution process.. i wudnt knoe.. but im sure we can all think.

Well.. im a pet lover. so i guess that makes me more prone to getting angry when i hear such stories of pet tortures and such..and just hope that those ppl get tortured the same way in hell.. over and over again.

olrite. peace.. :-)