And I wonder. Wat ur'e up to.. Wat i'm up to, i dun even know. Thinking? Wondering? Writing songs about u? Nope. i sit here lying to myself. I keep going by doing that these days.. Lies. Telling myself everything's gonna be alrite. when in truth nothing seems right.. there's no wrong to feel.. no right to right the wrong.. so.. i lie to myself. and i wonder. am i going crazy? certianly hope not. and the fact is i just cant accept caring alone. im greedy. greedy for love. thats just me. lying to myself? i dunno. maybe.. all these months. i've been lied to. now that. thats the truth.
And i do wonder. why? am i a monster? am i a drunkard? am i a murderer? am i a man who beats his gf up? am i a bad person? am i a rapist? am i a liar? am i a criminal? am i a clubber? am i a player? And i wonder. WHY?
There's a limit. to everything. i gave u my best.. u took.. did u give? did it matter to me? nope. expectations? yeah. everyone has expectations. u may say i dun deserve u.. i dun know if i do. wat else do u expect from me? if love has anymore expectations. i can never love. this is the best i can do. u can say i suck at love. i'll glady accept.. but if u say i didnt give it my best. then sadly i feel u're wrong.
am i angry? nope. am i happy? nope. am i sad? yep. am i affected? yep. do i need u? i do. do i want u? i do. do i love u? i do. do u need me? i'm afraid to know.
